With each adventure in my life come new learning curves, frustrations… and a huge amount of resolve, strength and courage. There are also a few pouty, lip out… temper tantrum moments…. with a few… no make that alot of exclamations… fist shaking and not so child appropriate words.
As we continue to film the 8….yes I said 8… videos for the Beyond the Basics Mixed Media Workshops…. after video 1, I was ready to throw in the towel…. but …haha! I’m to stubborn to do that! aaannnnd… I really, really want to do this. This has been a desire of mine for such a long time.
So after re doing video 1, 6 times… grrr…. I’m getting the groove… I have learned my monitor signals telling me my time is up…. I have my prompts posted to keep me on track… and we’re just about to complete the filming of video 5! hhhhhoooooray!
There is such a beautiful sweet spot in trying something new…. something that stretches you. Something that challenges your strength and confronts your weeknesses. This coming from the girl who is soooo predictable…. who drives the same way to work everyday, goes to the same spot to meet her girlfriends for 10 yrs, who has had the same black t shirt and jeans wardrobe for forever…who likes to have everything planned out and on schedule… I am so predictable! Part of that is my control issues.. 🙂 I know it… I have accepted my strangeness… however, that doesn’t mean that I can’t step out of the box…. if fact.. I have been stepping out of my little comfort zone alot in the last three years with this mighty adventure of entrepreneurship.
Changing my path, following my heart, pursuing a dream is risky, scary, hard…. and I wouldn’t change a thing… because it is a beautiful ride! Growing, learning, changing, building confidence in places I thought would never be exposed. Being vulnerable, throwing myself out into the world has taught me so many valuable lessons that will only nourish me for the next steps.
The process, like I said, has not been easy…. but I continue to go back to the desires that I wrote down many years ago… and I get tough and determined, I encourage myself, I leave myself notes, I write my desires and dreams and place them everywhere I can see them daily.
I have had alot of help on this journey, lots of encouragement, and I couldn’t have done it with out my close support, God, husband and you my friend…..but the bottom line is that although I have had tremendous support along the way… I am the only one that can make my dreams and desires happen. I had to put down the journal, the books, the plans and get my ass in gear! I had to take action! … not really sure of how things will turn out… I had to put my feet to the floor and go. I had to stop making excuses, stop waiting for the perfect time or for the business plan to be finished, and start being my own cheerleader, be my own boss, be my own happy,…stop whining and do it! (ok maybe a little whining). Each new step brings new challenges and new things to learn, I take a deep breathe and say a little prayer and dive in.
The more I challenge myself…. the more I step out of my comfort zone…. the stronger I get. Going after my dreams and desires is like starting a new workout program, at first the muscles that I’m using are weak, and after I use them they are sore. But I keep at my training program and after some time my muscles are not as sore any more…. and there getting stronger, pretty soon I’m seeing less flab and more muscle, I feel energized and motivated by what I’m seeing … yeah! Then the trainer switches to a different muscle group… boo :(… and I start the process over, less hesitant this time because I know what will happen If I work at it…. aaah yess…. that it life my friend!
Are you waiting for the right time? Stop waiting to do that thing that you long to do. It doesn’t mean you quit your day job…and sell everything. (or maybe it does if that is what you want) It can be small things like, taking a night class, buying the materials, joining a group, signing up for an art show, starting a website, buying a house, writing the story.. or maybe you have done that… and you are ready to take a big leap….what ever it is…. stop making excuses and take some action, stop blaming others or a situation.. and go for it!…. and take everything that happens as a learning experience. Love the process, grow your muscles and never look back. Only you can make it happen!
You are loved!