Rockin the blue today! The fabulous blue butterflies were my inspiration… along with an old journal entry… that broke my heart.
Enjoy the video!
Supplies Used:
8×8 mdf board, vintage papers from my collage paks, Butterflies, White, black, burnt umber, blue and quinacridone magenta acrylic paint, matte medium, charcoal pencil, catalyst, white and black paint markers.
As I was reading a journal entry in one of my journals from several years ago…. that read “I feel powerless” I got so sad, and grateful for where I am now. I wrote steps on how I could stop feeling powerless. Part of that process was owning my story…owning my decisions and owning my attitude. Changing things did not happen over night. I made the decision to make the changes right then…. and then took the steps to change. I decided to stop giving away my power and really taking ownership of my life and once I did that everything changed. That’s not to say that things were perfect or I didn’t slip into old patterns. Life is a cycle and things come and go… but for the most part, I never looked back. I dealt with my depression, made health choices, spoke to a therapist, and little step by little step… the light started to shine in my life again. YOU can do the same!
My friend… if you are feeling like you have given your power away, make the decision today to take it back. Own your part in your story and go! Take care of yourself, loving yourself and make the list today for what you can do to make the change.
You can do it… you can own it…. you don’t have to be a victim…
Always know that you are loved!
Thank you for the last thoughts. Feeling incredibly powerless at the moment and having no idea how to change it…But your words do encourage me!
Irma, I hurt for you…. It is such a yucky feeling… what can I do to help? Make your list of change…. don’t feel guilty or beat yourself up for where you are… just start today to own your story and to make change even if it’s just in your mind and in your journal. Please let me know if I can help in any way. Always know you are loved and you are stronger than you think! You can always email me… Hugs and love!
Beautiful!!!
Thanks my friend!
Thank you for the beautiful Butterflies and just a great picture today:-)
Joyce, thank you!
This painting is so beautiful. You do rock the blues and I hope you keep working with them. Thanks for sharing your story too. Powerful stuff.
Kelly… thank you so much!…. I always forget about blues but when I do something with them I always think why haven’t I done this before 🙂 Hugs!
It was music to my soul. I had lived with an emotionally abusive husband many years ago, and I felt I was powerless and did not have any control. My doctor at the time told me to find something tangible that I could hold, mine was a small rock. Even after we were divorced I would feel like he was trying to control me, so I named my rock “power” and I would tell myself out loud “I take my power back” as I grabbed my rock. Twenty Eight years later I still have my rock. Now, I have no control over what my body/health has done to me. I can feel so powerless at times, I should dig out my power rock. Thanks so much, I hope I didn’t tread too much into my life for all to see.
Sarah, Yes, dig out your power rock… anything to remind ourselves that we are not powerless! take small steps, mentally, physically and emotionally. You are obviously a strong soul to have gone through what you have gone through. Always know that you are loved! Thanks for being here…. we are better together. Hugs!
Thank you so much for your inspiration every week!Your words this week were close to my heart.I also suffer from depression among other things.Most people just don’t get it but I can see you truly do.Its just nice to know there are others like me and I am not alone.Thank you again for putting yourself out there,
Amanda
Amanda, You are never alone! I hope you take care of your depression and take care of yourself! We are all more alike than we are different. Always know that you are loved! Hugs!